The wedding was located in Orifino, ID. The very tip of Idaho, 11 hours away. As the event was approaching I might have thought that we wouldn't go. "Maybe Shanna will decide not to go." The thought of driving that far for a 4 hourish event seemed tough.
It was never cancelled. My bags were packed and I met Shanna Friday morning at 6am. There was no going back.
The drive was actually a lot better than we thought it was going to be. We are experts when it comes to road trips. Seattle, L.A, Lake Havasu, all of these are at least 10 hours and we have learned what works for us. Snacks, mixed cds (lol) and dehydrated bodies are the way to go. We also decided to grab an audio book. This helped immensely, although Shanna had to monitor me every once in awhile....the narrators voice was just so darn soothing.
Hours passed. Snacks were consumed, stories were swapped, cows bred in open fields and eventually the landscape became somewhat beautiful. This was something I did not expect.
We finally arrived in Orifino and it was so much more than I anticipated. It was beautiful! It was lush. It was friendly. It looks a lot like Washington. There was a river right by our hotel and our room was perfect for us. We were expecting a nasty hotel for the cheap rates but it was a pleasant surprise. Soon after we arrived we went out on "the town" and checked out our surroundings.
Next morning we filled up on complementary hot breakfast and went for a 3 mile walk. It was all incline and we were 100% impressed. We then drove around town and anything that looked semi interested turned into a photo opportunity.
Next we found some water and cooled our feet and made a new canine friend. He lingered just as long as the grocery folk did.
The wedding was quick, it was over within 10 minutes. Then cocktail hour came. It was uncomfortable. We sat at our table looking pathetic and anti social as all the stuffy people started to relax as the booze flowed through them. Shanna got some wine and the smell made me nauseous. I remember that smell from our winery tours in Napa when Anth and I were on vacation. The night dragged on and I could feel an anxiety headache spread across my forehead. I did not want to be there. At all.
Then dinner happened. The couple we saw in our hotel parking lot earlier sat at our table and we started to converse. Then Shanna got up and started talking with her old friends. I wanted to run away. I wanted to find a dark hole and crawl in it. I felt small and insignificant surrounded by all these people I didn't know and was so unsure of how to mingle with. People would talk to me and fight or flight set in. "Get me out of here!"
Then dancing started. It got dark and the booze and drunk people became more apparent. I then got an urge I have never had before. The urge to drink. The urge to let loose. The urge to not feel so worried and uptight. The urge to be a part of all the conversations. The urge to get off the chair and dance. The urge to not feel so insecure. The urge to not feel judged. I wanted to give in. No one would know. Shanna was up on the stage dancing and I could have easily grabbed a drink. It was really difficult to resist this temptation that I have never had to deal with before. It was a sad and low moment for me.
When Shanna returned I told her I was ready to go. It was dark, it was almost 11. We had been there since 4. I couldn't imagine how hard it was going to be driving down the mountain when it was difficult for me to drive in the dark. She was so great and agreed that it was time. Someone stumbled off the stage and rolled their ankle and someone was mentioning the vomit that was just spewed in the house. It was time to leave.
I drove us home and felt a huge relief. I had resisted the urge. It is really hard for me to not feel included and that was not easy for me. I am glad that Shanna has always been such a respectful friend. She knows who I am and what I stand for and I am so glad she has never pushed me. In that moment, if she would have tried to persuade me, I might have caved and that thought is so scary. I went to bed and said a prayer of gratitude for getting through the night.
The next morning we went for another walk and visited a cemetery that we had found the day before. It was so peaceful and old. I was glad we were able to visit it.
We drove 7 hours and stayed at The Anniversary Inn in Boise. It was so fun to see that building again.
This morning we woke up, had breakfast and finished the last 4 hours of our trip. It is good to be home. Anthony was excited to see me. "I stretched out the groceries for as long as I could." It feels good to be missed and needed (:
Thanks for another fun road trip. Although it wasn't the "Vacation" of our dreams, it turned out to be a lot better than we both expected. You're the best!